guilty thoughts

as a young mother i find myself feeling super guilty wishing that my life were the same as it were before i had a baby, only i find myself feeling really guilty i mean if i could go back and change things in my past i know for sure that i would turn down the opportunity. But sometimes i find myself in anger with how having a baby at a young age and how people treat me and it just goes on from there. i just seriously wish that there was a way for me to channel that anger into defending myself. i mean eventually in life people will no longer be able to tell. but i just feel super guilty for wishing that my life was something that i chose to give up by accepting my role as a mother.
(not saying that i gave up my life, but i can say that i gave up the social aspect of  it, to ensure the well being of my child.)

Never easy but always worth it!

on my club mama page that i started almost a year ago now. i have notice all of these beautiful, ambitious, selfless mothers ask many questions from problems with teething on down to the bad biting phase of their child. and recently i have notice that our bond as mothers young and old have brought us close enough to together to ask serious questions that regarding our relationships with ourselves, and i quote " why is it easier for men to get there lives back on track after having a baby then it is for the mother?" on up to the relationships with our spouse, or spouse-like partners: My spouse, spouse-like partners, boyfriend has a bad habit, and his bad habit has a tendency of put us (as in his child and i) last, i am looking for suggestions, before i lose it  can anyone give me advice to help me get through this?
 something i heard and i love to hear anytime i am having a hard day is: " no one ever said it would be easy, they only said it would be worth it.

I have never seen a group of girls become women, ever and so i would like to say thank you to all of you mamas whom have been there to give me advice on some of the many decisions in my life. who have been there to listen to me vent. and who have done the same for many... ALL of the girls aka Mothers on the club mama page if we haven't personally said it. we are saying it now to one another. THANK YOU!