guilty thoughts

as a young mother i find myself feeling super guilty wishing that my life were the same as it were before i had a baby, only i find myself feeling really guilty i mean if i could go back and change things in my past i know for sure that i would turn down the opportunity. But sometimes i find myself in anger with how having a baby at a young age and how people treat me and it just goes on from there. i just seriously wish that there was a way for me to channel that anger into defending myself. i mean eventually in life people will no longer be able to tell. but i just feel super guilty for wishing that my life was something that i chose to give up by accepting my role as a mother.
(not saying that i gave up my life, but i can say that i gave up the social aspect of  it, to ensure the well being of my child.)

Never easy but always worth it!

on my club mama page that i started almost a year ago now. i have notice all of these beautiful, ambitious, selfless mothers ask many questions from problems with teething on down to the bad biting phase of their child. and recently i have notice that our bond as mothers young and old have brought us close enough to together to ask serious questions that regarding our relationships with ourselves, and i quote " why is it easier for men to get there lives back on track after having a baby then it is for the mother?" on up to the relationships with our spouse, or spouse-like partners: My spouse, spouse-like partners, boyfriend has a bad habit, and his bad habit has a tendency of put us (as in his child and i) last, i am looking for suggestions, before i lose it  can anyone give me advice to help me get through this?
 something i heard and i love to hear anytime i am having a hard day is: " no one ever said it would be easy, they only said it would be worth it.

I have never seen a group of girls become women, ever and so i would like to say thank you to all of you mamas whom have been there to give me advice on some of the many decisions in my life. who have been there to listen to me vent. and who have done the same for many... ALL of the girls aka Mothers on the club mama page if we haven't personally said it. we are saying it now to one another. THANK YOU!

competitive touch

now you are probably asking yourself What The Heck is this going to be about? i mean its not like everything you touch from this point on is all of a sudden get up and sign up and compete in the next event.
no i am talking about those mothers whom are guilty of sizing up the "competition" of whom kid is cuter today or whom kid is doing this and that, as mothers y'all know what i am talking about!!!
well to get on with my point i like many other mothers out there signed my baby up for the Gerber Generation Challange. well at the end of the competition i couldn't help but read how some people felt that many mothers cheated and that the competition was not really a competition because many people weren't able to vote for kids because the whole system went down and what not. well during the whole competition all i wanted was to see how many votes i could gather for my baby it wasn't nessecarily about the reward/cash prizes at the time it was more the numbers factor well as i was reading these mother comments on the Gerber photo page i could help but ask myself "is this what i have become?" and my answer was i hope not because this all ridiculous because it was just ONE little competition that was meant for fun and games. well now that the result are out i am happy that my baby didn't win because when i think back on that all i would have remember was that because my baby won so many mothers let there competitive touch the ears and hearts (lives) of their kids.
just some food for thought

Battle for freedom

Okay mamas how many of you ever wanted to body slam your significant other??? any takers because seriously i feel like doing that every other day. and not because i don't love or appreciate him, it is more the fact that in this tiny space that i can't stand him all the time. i mean i love him more then...well i love baby girl first but then comes him! but sometimes more then none i need my space to do what i want, like take a hour long shower or go and get a massage, hell even lock myself in my room all alone no baby attached and definately no spouse or spouse-like partner attached. anyways i said all that to say this do you feel just because you've become a mother that you should come to terms of never having time for your self EVER! again?? and if so how in the world can you hold on to your sanity so that your not catching a case.just food for thought.

My bundle of Joy

Okay so my little girl will be 10 months in a few days, but she always know what to do to cheer me up when i'm feeling a bit down and its just really amazing that she can do that. well those of you whom known me know that baby girl had a fever and during her down time all i wanted to do was make her feel better. almost like return the favor you know? well long story short she and i were playing her new favorite game "Hide and Boo" which consist of her crawling around and me going around the corners then saying boo which causes her to laugh hysterically. well today while playing this game she all of a sudden was super quite, so of course as any good mother would do i go around looking for her and i start calling her name and i can hear her squealing and laughing again then i hear her say mama,mama,mama-eee which was almost enough to make me cry at that point. and so i go around to pick her up and ask her to say it again. but then i go to pick her up and she just takes off crawling away from and i guess wasn't fast enough to beat her around the corner because she was already around the other side saying ooo!! made my day that she wanted to make me happy. she is my little bundle of Joy and i am greatful for her!0

Go Back Throw back!

so i am writing this because starting this blog made me think about this old memory that ties to my whole blog. anyways where i come from every girl hopes to please their parents by marrying the guy of there dreams and then having a couple kids to raise and  calling everything good, right?? well some of the other girls i knew all had made little goals for themselves such as "being a "COOL" mom!" or to "Never repeat the same mistakes that they watched their older siblings or parents make." and just stuff like that. but anyways at that time my whole take on life was set on becoming a mom whether i was cool wasn't what matter. But being a mom did and all that started at a young age. so i guess my Question is if society has placed an age limit/restriction on when it is okay to be a mom, why is it so tied into how we are raise? just food for thought.

Introduction of why i have started this.

Hello young moms out there, i feel like nowadays in our society people have different opinions on what the "correct" age is for women to have kids and what is the "wrong" age is for women to have kids, and i just feel like with all of these opinions flying around no one is taking into consideration the feelings of the mother going through this. And so this is my way of giving the "YOUNG" mom or that "OLD" mom a Voice.